So, after much consideration, I've decided that what's truly wrong with my life, and is the true reason for my depression and stress is my lack of confidence in myself as a mother and wife, also my lack of faith and trust in the Lord. So, I'm going to start working on it. I'm going to put all my trust in the Lord, and become the wife and mother that He calls me to be.
Scripture for consideration: Proverbs 31:10-31
In going over the scripture above, I started to realized the things I need to seriously work on.
1. I need to make sure my husband trusts me.
Not just in a fidelity sense. He needs to trust me with money, with his secrets, and with his heart as well. I'm not exactly the best with money- and sometimes I have a bad habit of spending, even when I know I shouldn't.. It's on things for the family, but I go overboard. A LOT.
2. Does her husband good, and not evil.
It's not that I intentionally do my husband harm, but I do have a tendency to pick on him. :( I'm a mean person sometimes. It's because I'm insecure, and I need to get over it.
3. She is hardworking. I do think that I am a hard worker. I go to school full-time, as well as babysit, do housework and take care of our 3 kids. I'm fairly confident that I do work hard.
4. She provides.
I believe that I provide as much as I can, monetarily speaking. However, when it comes to providing my kids with the foundations and morals the Lord calls me to provide- I lack. For so long I've neglected these things and brushed them aside, hoping that my husband would wake up and start leading our family. What I failed to realize is that JUST LIKE if he was to be unable to work, I would have to, when he is unable to lead, I must be there to lead our children. THAT IS MY JOB. I need to provide that leadership to my children.
5. She rises to prepare.
I sleep in. I totally feel I'm entitled to do so every once in a while. :)
6. She considers her investments.
As I said above, I suck with money. I spend without considering the long-term effects of what I'm doing. I don't usually spend on things that are just for me- I usually buy for others, or for the family as a whole, but I go overboard. So, I need to start considering what I'm spending money on, and learning to stretch the cash a little bit and making what I buy last and be worth our while.
7. She uses her income to better the family.
I think that I do this, for the most part. I use what money I make for rent, food, and occasionally clothing for the kids. However, like stated above, I need to learn to make it last and to get more "bang for my buck."
8. Does what she is called to do, day or night, whenever needed.
I do everything my family needs me to do, it's just getting motivated to do it that's the problem. I battle my insane urge to be lazy on a daily basis, and since having depression, this urge has only increased. However, I think that this also means to do what God calls me to do, day and night. It's my job to show my children how to live, and how God asks us to live. To do this, I have to try to be as Christ-like as possible day and night because I'm called to be.
9. She helps those in need.
I do help those in need. ALL THE TIME. I just need to learn to accept the help I need as well, and not be taken advantage of by those who claim their in need. Sometimes people need to be told no rather than given money or other items. And everyone could use prayer. <3
10. She trusts the Lord.
THIS, is the biggest thing I need to learn. I need to learn to put my trust and faith in the Lord, and realize that he is in control and knows what is best for me and my family. I struggle with this so much, and I know that just trusting him will improve my life tremendously.
11. She keeps up with the household.
I do this, but like I said, I struggle with laziness. The household chores are usually the first thing that I neglect when I find myself feeling lazy. I need to start taking responsibility and doing what I know I need to do.
12. She is presentable.
I feel I keep myself presentable. I dress professionally when I need to. I never dress in inappropriate clothing. I feel one should always dress in clothing they wouldn't be embarrassed to wear in front of their parents.
13. She is strong inside and out.
I am, but part of being strong is admitting when you need help, and accepting you can't do it all. It's knowing that putting your pride aside is what you must do. It's being broken in Christ.
14. She is well-spoken.
I try to be well-spoken, but I sometimes let my tongue get the best and I speak things I shouldn't. I know this, and I know it doesn't make me cool, or smart sounding. I need to get over it.
15. She is kind.
I have an explosive temper. I've found that I'm kind to most, but I can be unkind mostly to those I'm closest to, and that makes me sad. This is the second biggest thing I feel I need to work on.
16. She is not lazy.
I think I've said a few times, I battle laziness on a daily basis. I think it's all in being human. But I've got to learn to push past it and do what I have to do.
17. Her children and husband love her.
They do love me- but I think the thing I need to work on is accepting their love. :) Learning that they love me unconditionally, just as I love them.
18. She fears the Lord.
I do. I fear him very much. I just don't think I let people in on that, and I think that if I projected that I'm a God fearing woman to more people, I could touch more lives, and in turn, better my family's life.
Scripture for consideration: Proverbs 31:10-31
In going over the scripture above, I started to realized the things I need to seriously work on.
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| Learn to trust him. |
1. I need to make sure my husband trusts me.
Not just in a fidelity sense. He needs to trust me with money, with his secrets, and with his heart as well. I'm not exactly the best with money- and sometimes I have a bad habit of spending, even when I know I shouldn't.. It's on things for the family, but I go overboard. A LOT.
2. Does her husband good, and not evil.
It's not that I intentionally do my husband harm, but I do have a tendency to pick on him. :( I'm a mean person sometimes. It's because I'm insecure, and I need to get over it.
3. She is hardworking. I do think that I am a hard worker. I go to school full-time, as well as babysit, do housework and take care of our 3 kids. I'm fairly confident that I do work hard.
4. She provides.
I believe that I provide as much as I can, monetarily speaking. However, when it comes to providing my kids with the foundations and morals the Lord calls me to provide- I lack. For so long I've neglected these things and brushed them aside, hoping that my husband would wake up and start leading our family. What I failed to realize is that JUST LIKE if he was to be unable to work, I would have to, when he is unable to lead, I must be there to lead our children. THAT IS MY JOB. I need to provide that leadership to my children.
5. She rises to prepare.
I sleep in. I totally feel I'm entitled to do so every once in a while. :)
6. She considers her investments.
As I said above, I suck with money. I spend without considering the long-term effects of what I'm doing. I don't usually spend on things that are just for me- I usually buy for others, or for the family as a whole, but I go overboard. So, I need to start considering what I'm spending money on, and learning to stretch the cash a little bit and making what I buy last and be worth our while.
7. She uses her income to better the family.
I think that I do this, for the most part. I use what money I make for rent, food, and occasionally clothing for the kids. However, like stated above, I need to learn to make it last and to get more "bang for my buck."
8. Does what she is called to do, day or night, whenever needed.
I do everything my family needs me to do, it's just getting motivated to do it that's the problem. I battle my insane urge to be lazy on a daily basis, and since having depression, this urge has only increased. However, I think that this also means to do what God calls me to do, day and night. It's my job to show my children how to live, and how God asks us to live. To do this, I have to try to be as Christ-like as possible day and night because I'm called to be.
9. She helps those in need.
I do help those in need. ALL THE TIME. I just need to learn to accept the help I need as well, and not be taken advantage of by those who claim their in need. Sometimes people need to be told no rather than given money or other items. And everyone could use prayer. <3
10. She trusts the Lord.
THIS, is the biggest thing I need to learn. I need to learn to put my trust and faith in the Lord, and realize that he is in control and knows what is best for me and my family. I struggle with this so much, and I know that just trusting him will improve my life tremendously.
11. She keeps up with the household.
I do this, but like I said, I struggle with laziness. The household chores are usually the first thing that I neglect when I find myself feeling lazy. I need to start taking responsibility and doing what I know I need to do.
12. She is presentable.
I feel I keep myself presentable. I dress professionally when I need to. I never dress in inappropriate clothing. I feel one should always dress in clothing they wouldn't be embarrassed to wear in front of their parents.
13. She is strong inside and out.
I am, but part of being strong is admitting when you need help, and accepting you can't do it all. It's knowing that putting your pride aside is what you must do. It's being broken in Christ.
14. She is well-spoken.
I try to be well-spoken, but I sometimes let my tongue get the best and I speak things I shouldn't. I know this, and I know it doesn't make me cool, or smart sounding. I need to get over it.
15. She is kind.
I have an explosive temper. I've found that I'm kind to most, but I can be unkind mostly to those I'm closest to, and that makes me sad. This is the second biggest thing I feel I need to work on.
16. She is not lazy.
I think I've said a few times, I battle laziness on a daily basis. I think it's all in being human. But I've got to learn to push past it and do what I have to do.
17. Her children and husband love her.
They do love me- but I think the thing I need to work on is accepting their love. :) Learning that they love me unconditionally, just as I love them.
18. She fears the Lord.
I do. I fear him very much. I just don't think I let people in on that, and I think that if I projected that I'm a God fearing woman to more people, I could touch more lives, and in turn, better my family's life.
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